I am the type of person, who rarely be herself. Not because she is afraid of others' perception on herself, but she was never comfortable to be herself in the first place.
She is the type of girl, whom many thought they know her as herself. Truth is, nobody do. Only the ones who could see her as her own. Does that even make anymore sense?
She is the type of girl who wants to be herself, but it feels as if it was never meant to be.
I guess maybe she has been too much during the past 5 years. I guess I had been through a lot the last 5 years.
I always refer to myself as she, is that weird? Maybe because I am always away from my own mind at times.
She sometimes still cries herself to sleep. Or even tries not to.
The pillow is still the one that feels good to hug, that varsity jacket is still the most comfortable, as if he was still hugging me.
To be honest, I don't think mentally, she could handle anymore of this.
I know for sure she can't, but how to let her know that?
All I could do everyday, is to make myself become very tired with various things to do.
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